Failure

So, last night's Salt topic was on discouragement. (Unfortunately, things were complicated and the message didn't get recorded--I know, sad day) Anyway, there was talk about how many people have gone through depressions, and it reminded me of something I realized a couple months ago. In my past, I would go through depressions. I never attempted suicide, but there was a lot of times where I considered it. My reason for never going through with it was because I was afraid of how people would treat me if I failed. I wasn't afraid of succeeding, I was afraid of the consequences of failure.

In other news, last night was the first Salt or Veritas that I wasn't on the schedule in 2 months, and I was still there from the beginning of setup until the end of teardown. I need to take better advantage of my days off.

In still other news, I started actually listening to my audio bible. I got it in October, but I hadn't really taken advantage of it before. So on Sunday, I started listening to it, and I've been listening to it every time I'm going somewhere, or when I'm studying in the library at school. So far, I'm 2/3 of the way through Deuteronomy, and it'll end up taking about a month to listen to it all the way through. So if you see me with my earbuds in, I'm probably listening to some NIV Old Testament awesomeness.