...and I'm not sure how I feel about that. On the one hand, I'm glad that very few people will be around for my birthday, but on the other hand, I won't see most of these people for a long time--possibly never again.
I'm glad about no on being around for my birthday because I hate gatherings centered around me. I don't like being the center of attention--it's very uncomfortable. It also makes my standard party-leaving very hard. If you have been to a gathering with me, you may have noticed that at some point during the evening, I'm simply not there anymore. I'm awkward when it comes to good-byes, so I leave by one of two methods--stay until everyone else is leaving, or disappear. You can't disappear when you're the center of attention, so I'd be forced to stay until the end, which sometimes ends up with awkward moments. Besides, I haven't had a birthday party--other than family get-togethers where it's also the "birthday" of two of my cousins--since 5th grade, and I'm not eager to change that.
However, it is upsetting that people are leaving. My friends seem to be all scattering to the four winds. Some won't be back until Fall--which is precisely when I'm leaving--and some won't be back until Spring. I might not see a lot of these people ever again, and that makes me sad. But that's what happens when you follow God--momentary sadness followed by eternal joy. I am excited for Iowa City, and starting up a church with a bunch of cool people.
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